Yeah, I've been holding off on updating you guys on this, primarily because I've been hoping I would have been able to get my mother to the hospital and get her properly checked out. But here we are.
So last Friday, my mother more than likely twisted her ankle...(Hopefully not broken). We had to call in the EMS to take a look at her and help her back to her bed as I couldn't support her full weight on my own. Despite wanting the EMS to take her to the hospital and have an actual doctor look at her, she refused to go. Since then, things have been very frustrating, exhausting, and tense. My already awful sleep has been that much worse because my mother can't get up from bed at all now, which means I've taken on transporting a portable urinal and cleaning up after her as much as I can. For her sake, I won't go into further detail, but it has become very tough to handle alone. I feel guilty for the things I can't handle and frustrated and angry over the things my mother refuses to listen to me about. While I try to be understanding of her Agoraphobia, I feel I'm doing her a disservice by simply allowing or accepting she won't do things she's 'afraid to do.'
Aside from being physically exhausted, I'm also emotionally exhausted. I'm burnt out and just not in the best headspace to work despite my best efforts to force it. Needless to say, everything has been set back thanks to this, and I'm at a loss as to how to proceed. I'm going to try to get in work here and there over the next few days, but I don't expect anything to get back into the normal flow for at least a week. For that, I'm truly sorry. I will try and keep everyone posted as things progress and if anything changes, but for now, I'm essentially on an unscheduled...I guess Hiatus? At least until this situation is resolved.
I hope you all understand, and I hope you have a fantastic Independence Day or had one if you were Canadian. Thanks for supporting me, and sorry again,
-Wasty
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